hey....notice I didn't do a 4am journal entry?!  Haha.  I took my sleeping pills last night at 11pm and by 1am I was asleep.  Left the laptop in the living room so only had the tv to keep me awake.  Set the sleep timer on the tv and fell asleep before it shut off at 1am.  Woke up this morning at 9:30am.  Now the only problem is that it is almost noon and I'm ready for a nap.  *sigh*  I don't have any plans for today other then to get a shower at some point and maybe clean the bathroom and if I'm feeling ambitious maybe work on my room a bit as well.  Tomorrow is an appointment with my psychiatrist and then I'm going to my friends house after.  Boy, I don't have much of anything to write about....yesterday Mom came over again.  She helped me with some more stuff around here and then helped me get groceries.  Yay for food!  I am so thankful I have a mother who helps me with things that I need help with.  I don't know what I would do without her.  Seriously, I am dreading the day that she is no longer with us on earth.  :(  Okay...lets not think about that right now.  I realize I'm overly dependent on my mother and her opinions mean way more to me then they should but she's my Mom.  I'm learning to love her and appreciate her but trying to make my own decisions now especially when it comes to applying to these different coops...I've applied to some in areas she doesn't want me to live.  But I don't know which one will become available soonest so I've applied to a bunch and it's all a waiting game.  I'll deal with the location when and if the time comes.  I'm the one that will have to live there...not her.  Anyhow, I'm sleepy.  Maybe I should have a nap.  I dunno.  Need a break from the computer anyway.