Finally back.  She said that is helpful that a brought it in.  She only could look at a little bit of it or we wouldnt' have had any session at all.  But she says it's helpful so I might do that again next time.  We talked about hospital but I'm not sure that's the right option right now.  You only get a short admission and I'm not convince right now that would be beneficial.  It might help for a few days but I'd be right back in the same boat within a few days of being out.  I need to figure out a way to get through this without utilizing that option right now.  Trying to stay safe in the meantime.  I have to try to get through until Monday and I will see my psychiatrist then. Went to get my prescription filled.  What a pain that was.  The wrong date was written on the presciption so they aren't able to give it to me.  I have to go back again tomorrow.  I told them I have to stop the loxapine because of problems with my bloodwork and so they decided to give me one pill for tonight.  *ugh*  I almost broke down right there.  So frustrating.  I know it's a simple mistake we all make writing the wrong date so I'm not mad.  Just frustrated.  Just not what I needed to deal with today.   I thought about buying more benadryl so I could od on it but didn't.  Part of me wishes right now that I did though.  I feel like giving in so bad.  I just need to get through one moment at a time though.  I'm not even going day by day right now...that's way too long.  It's basically minute by minute.  Even second by second.  But it's so hard. Oh...one good thing...when I was walking through the grocery store waiting for the prescription stuff to get taken care of I looked down in one of the isles and stopped....right there on the shelf was boxes of POCKY!  I never seen it in our regular grocery stores before....it's usually only in the Asian Markets so I was quite impressed.  I picked up one of each kind.  Which was only 3 kinds because they don't have any of the really wacky flavors but it was nice to see it regardless.  I picked up the regular chocolate (which I know I like) and I picked up the strawberry (haven't tried yet), and the green tea flavor (which scares me, but I want to try).    Actually just trying it now.  I don't much care for the green tea flavor...but oh well.  I can at least say I've tried it now.  That was a good surprise to find at the store.  :)  My BIL is still in hospital.  They're saying he'll be discharged tomorrow.  I know he's looking forward to getting home.