Tuesday, February 26, 2008

This dumb anxiety makes me feel like cutting.  Trying not to give in.  Just feeling so edgy right now.  I dunno how much I can take.  I got appointment set with counselor for next Wednesday.  Still feels like that is a long time.  Right now feels like I should be seeing someone almost every day that's how it is.  I don't really have much to say but writing here as a distraction.  Not really helping though.  I think I will go grab a carton of chocolate milkshake that I bought yesterday and maybe take an Ativan.  I don't want to but it's getting to either doing that or cutting.  Have more urges to od too but I just think of last week and it dulls those urges a bit.  *ugghhhh*  Why am I so weak?!?!  It's so hard feeling like this.