the crisis lines around here are freakin usless.  I'm miserable but they just told me to go watch tv.  Fuck like thats gonna do anything.  I just got back from the post office and mailed the swap packages and picked up some ibuprofen to try to ease the aches in my legs and my back.  That walk hurt so bad...and my moods are wicked bad on top of that.  And my period started.  And I'm just plain miserable.  I wish I had somethin to drink.  Gosh, why'd I decide to stop drinking.. ..this sucks.  I can't deal with this stuff.  I'm not that strong.  I jsut don't know what to do anymore.e  Nothing makes sense...and it feel like no one cares.  This is the only place anyone seems to care but no offence it's not the same.  I just don't want to deal with this shit anymore.  I'm so close to givijg up.  Trying not to.  Just can't keep hanging on much lsonger.  That's all.  I'm sorry.