I'm feeling really really aggitated right now.  I feel so bad like giving into the urges and am trying so hard not to.  I want to cut so damn bad.   So much stupid little things going on right now...but they shouldn't be making me feel this way.  Not this much.  I'm still sick, but feeling better then a couple days ago.  I tried to get a good night sleep.  It was broken sleep but I got it.  I slept from about 10:30pm until 1:30am...and then from about 4:30am to 9:30/10am.  My roommate got back from Mexico...which is fine...but her boyfriend is here now too...and so I haven't left my room since I woke up.  I just really don't want to be around anyone...especially men.  I don't feel like being the slightest bit social right now.  I'm sick, and I'm tired, and I'm irritable.  And dammit I'm used to this place being quiet now and those two are carrying on...with no cares for anyone in the house being sick.  And then...aside from all that...my arm I think is infected...some of the cuts.  So that means I'm going to have to try to buy some bandages or something so I can treat it.  *ughhh*  It looks nasty. So I'm in a really crappy space right now.  I can't help it.  I'm trying. I see my chiropractor today if I can get there.  Mom doesn't think I should go...but I've got to get out of the house.  Mom's sick too and the weather is gross here...we're suppose to get a lot of rain and wind so she thinks it's better to stay put.  We'll I'm sorry but I'll effin loss my mind if I stay in another day.  I'm so sick of being sick in every single f*cken way.  *SCREAMS*