finally back home from my appt and errands...my head still hurts from yesterday...i think i undid all the progress the chiropractor was making, i can feel the pain in my neck and jaw and my neck has cracked about 50 bazillion times.  Why do I do these things to myself...I guess it's rage and anger...but I don't know it until it's too late at which point I am not thinking straight anymore and just need pain.  And it's not even pain at the time...I don't know how to explain it.  My psych and I talked about it but I couldn't really focus today...so I just did the uh huh, uh huh kinda thing today because I couldn't do anything else.  Went downtown for a bit to my insurance company and the the bank.  Then the liquor store, and then back home.  I know two people in the hospital right now in labor so that is the good news for today.  There will be 2 new babies...but only one of them I'll get to know.  The other person doesn't know me...it's the mother of the girl my sister babysits.  I'm guessing my step-niece will have her baby at 12:34am.  But that's just a guess...I have no idea how far along in labor she is so I might change that later.