Well, not sure if I'll get to write another entry or not before I go away.  Tomorrow morning I leave for the Holy Spirit Weekend.  I still need to pack and get ready.  I am half dreading going and half looking forward to it.  I know it will be good for me and a step in the right direction.  At this point it's either this or continue to go downhill and likely need hospitalization.  Still might need that in the end with all medical chaos going on in my family.  But to do this get-away thing is a good thing...at least I hope.  And it scares the crap outta me but I think it will help in my recovery. I'm going to go outside in a minute to see if the kitties are around.  I don't know if I'll have time in the morning so I want to try and see them before I go.  Then I will need to pack and go to bed.  I have to be up super early in the morning.  Ugghhh.  I realized a little while ago that I hadn't really eaten anything good today and my stomach was very painful so I made myself some cream of tomato soup and added some curry to it.  Also broke up some kashi crackers and melted some cheese into it.  It was tasty.  My tummy feels better too so I think it was the lack of good food and the abundance of chocolate candy that was upsetting it.  Anyhow...I better go.  If you don't hear from me for a few days it's because I'm gone on the Holy Spirit Weekend Retreat and then probably straight to my parents house from that.  Hoping to be back online Monday at the latest.