Well, first news first.  I talked to the Hematologist and we're going to proceed with the bone marrow biopsy.  I'm so sick of hearing about it, I just want it over with.  I will call tomorrow to book the appointment.  It will be as soon as Thursday, or else next week for sure.  It sounds like he's taking me on his lunch hour.  Once that's done I'll be another step closer to starting treatment, whatever that may be. Second news I'm sort of stunned about.  I found out something bad tonight about my ex that I"m sort of stunned and on edge about.  I really had no idea...and hopefully he's changed his ways.  I know he attends church now and all that so hopefully God has reached him and changed him.  I found out he was convicted of child pornography.   I'm sort of in shock I guess.  I knew there where a few inconsistencies but for it to be that, wow.. ..I don't know what else to say about that really.  Anyway.... I did get to Alpha tonight.  I was a little over an hour late getting there but I made it for most of the video and all of the discussion.  I'm a little sad that I missed the supper but I needed to deal with my health related stuff first tonight.   I pulled the pastor aside afterwards and told him what is going on with the medical stuff and he knows a little bit already with the depression.  He thanked me for telling him and he prayed with me.  I got a little teary...but felt good.