Feeling better now.I had my appointment today.  I don't know what I got so worked up about, because the appointment was fine.  I knew it would be...it's that anticipatory "what if" stress.The Rheumatologist wants to hold off on treatment until a bone marrow biopsy is done.  Also, she sent me for bloodwork and a chest xray today and is booking me for a echocardiogram.  I have a phone appointment tonight with my Hematologist who was hoping that I would be starting treatment for my low WBC's.  He may decide to start treatment himself or he may decide also to wait until after a bone marrow biopsy.  He's also suppose to order specialized bloodwork that is to be sent overseas for testing.  I'll find out more tonight, but as of now I feel more at ease.  We'll see what news tonight's conversation brings. Mentally I'm in good mind state as well.  Things feel better.