i can't sleep and i'm really hungry...so i'll probably get up and have breakfast soon...it's 5am here.for a couple hours thought i was going to have to go to ER afterall...but feeling better again sortathis is my night for no sleep meds and that's the main reason i can't sleep...but that's okay because i know tonight I can use the sleep med if needed.  The shoulder/chest/breathing pain is the other.  I am tired of taking so many meds for it.   i'm just typing now because i am bored and trying to kill a little time.  I want to hold off until at least 5:30am before having breakfast...or even 6am.  I'd prefer to sleep before eating...but it's not looking promising.  Maybe I should just get up and eat and do the morning routine early and maybe by then i'll be tired enough to go to sleep.I might even go to church if I'm feeling up to it in a few hours.  I'm not sure I'll be able to go to my Alpha course because of this medical stuff.  The course starts at 6pm but the Hematologist doesn't want me to call until after 6pm.  So I'll be late for the course anyway.  *shrugs*  Hoping I won't miss it all.  It's dissappointing that I'm probably going to miss all the supper. Well this probably the most boring journal entry ever so i'll shut up now