Feeling okay at the moment.  Got out this evening for a bit and bought my nephew his birthday gift.  I can't believe he's going to be 13!  I've got to hang on for his sake right now.  His Nan passed away last October and so it was a hard birthday for him.  I can't do anything stupid for the next week or so.  My shoulder and chest is feeling better today then yesterday.  It still hurts like crap but it is better so hopefully it is getting better.  I'm still worried about Monday and things will interfere with my Alpha course a bit...but I guess health is most important.  I'm scared to face this and whatever the treatment may be.  But there is a possibility that my depression might be affected by this as well.  So if this is treated the depression and problems there might start to get better.  I just am sooooo afraid of steroids.  I don't want to gain weight or start looking puffy.  I guess I'll deal with it on Monday.  She might decide not to do anything anyway...but I still have to call the other doctor that evening and he's wanting something done.I sometimes wish I was a kid and blissfully unaware of this.  Let my parents deal with all the technicalities of it and I would accept the treatment as is at that point.  *sigh*  That's not life though.Just one more day to get through before D Day...hopefully I'll figure out a way to survive.