I feel like crap.  The doctor wasn't helpful at all really.  If this continues to keep me awake through the night tonight I will probably go to the ER.  I know it's probably just something minor but this is getting ridiculus.  It's screwing with my moods and I really didn't need this on top of everything else.  I'm sorry I keep complaining.  I don't mean to.  I'm just so tired of one thing after the other going wrong.  I'm tired of feeling like I'm falling apart.  I really wanted to go geocaching but I can't barely walk up 5 stairs, or bend over to pick up something off the floor.  I can't take a deep breath or lay down comfortably.  I'm light headed because of not being able to breath.  And I know it is NOT an anxiety attack or asthma.  My lungs are perfectly clear...I barely have a cough.  Add this to all the other crap going on with my bloodwork and mental health and I'm ready to just give in.  I have what I need and if it wasn't for the fact I want to see the Rheumatologist and get some more answers I'd be giving in to it right now.  I'm sick of dealing with it, but at the same time I want answers.  I don't really want to give in, just want to be healthy and happy.  Apparently that's too much to ask though.  I can't even be one of those.  I mentioned to my mom that I might go to the ER and now she's freaking out...but not because of me needing to go to the ER...but because my immune system right now is so low with the low WBC's that she's afraid of what I'll be exposed to.  But seriously I can't handle this.  I know I'm being a huge sulk and I'm sorry.  I should stop wasting time and space.  I'm probably just overtired (been awake since before 6am)...so I am going to take some meds and go to bed.  Hopefully I'll get some sleep and be in a better mood tomorrow.