I'm feeling really crummy tonight.  I should be feeling happy...one of my friends that I know through geocaching started an online group for Christian geocachers and tonight he asked me if I'd like to be one of the moderators.  I said yes of course.  But now I feel like there's so much extra responsibility.  Yesterday I wanted him to ask me...so I don't know what the problem is.  I think I'm just moody and cranky today.  And I'm just afraid of doing something wrong all the time so now I'm even more afraid of that...but maybe this is a good thing for me.  I dunno.  Well, I wasn't going to drink anything tonight but I've had a bottle of Arbor Mist in my fridge since my throat starting getting sore and tonight I decided I was going to have it.  Well, the bottle is gone now...I'm wide awake...in a bummed out mood...which I know the alcohol didn't help any....and contemplating drinking more.  I'm such a 2 faced hypocritical person...Christian.  *sigh*  And I keep doing it to myself...when will I learn...