i think i'm okay now....feeling much more calm at the moment...it sorta comes and goes in waves...anyway, forced myself to have some food and am soon going to have a herbal tea....looking forward to the season premier of House tonight.  It's not on until 10pm though...so I've got a little bit to wait.  I really want a drink but I don't have my own here...could get into my roommates but if they get much lower i'll have to fork over money for more and I can't do that.  I know if i go out though that i'll go to the liquor store and use the credit card so i've just been staying put.  It's safer that way.  Thinking i might go watch some tv for awhile and kill some time....i'm tired right now of being online...