Just read what i wrote very early this morning before I went to bed.  Feeling better today I think I was just overtired and I did have a few drinks.  I like the spiderweb analogy though...not sure how/when I came up with that.  I know the drinks got me in a creative mood because my sketchbook is out and I really like one of the pieces I did.  I will try and scan it onto the computer sometime so I can share it.  I'm not sure the meaning behind it yet but I usually figure out the meanings eventually. I finally had that shower today that I've been putting off.  It's so nice to feel clean again.  Also, started to put away the clean dishes that are in the dishwasher...must finish that soon, the dirty dishes are starting to pile up.  I had my appointment with my naturopathic doctor today.  It went well even though I broke down crying.  I'm still not used to the idea that naturopathic doctors deal with the "whole" body (meaning body and mind) so she started challenging me on some of my anxieties.  Wasn't really expecting that but it went okay.  She wants me to start doing the positive self talk again which i know I should be doing but have severely slacked on doing.  Also she gave me permission to start drinking coffee again...Yay!!!  Even though it's got to be decaf and no sugar (Stevia is okay though)...and I'm aloud to have milk in my coffee.  I'm sooo happy because I've missed my coffee for so long.  I liked getting up and having a cup of coffee as I wake up...so I'm very happy about that.  I've also got to try to incorporate some brocoli and legumes into my diet.  She said they should help with the moods around time of the month.  Overall it was a pretty good appointment.  She knows how much I am trying and how hard it is on a limited budget.  Tomorrow is an appointment with my psychiatrist and then I have to go downtown.  I shall try and remember to charge the batteries for my camera so I can take pictures.  I might go down to the waterfront or to the gardens.  We'll see how my energy and my moods are.