Just my newest weird writing...I’ve let everyone down and myself too many times.  I don’t know how to be human anymore.  I don’t know how to be around people and not bring my stupid past and problems into everything I do.  I don’t have friends who aren’t connected in some way to this crazy twisted web I’ve spun myself over the years and I’ll probably never get myself untangled.  I don’t know how.  I’ve lost the energy and the will to try.  Why keep fighting it when you just end up further entangled.  This is the only world I know now.  The other “normal” world is just a distant memory…something from a dream.  I’m stuck in this sticky sticky web and the more I try to get out the more stuck I get.  I pull and pull and pull and get so close to being free but it snares me in it’s evil trap.  It will always have me.  I can never fully break free.  Not by myself anyway.  It’s a trap…and I’m stuck in it.  When is that damn spider going to come and suck my blood dry?!  I’ve been in this trap long enough struggling.  I’m just another fly in the web…