I'm sorry...I realized now that it's been a bit since I've written.  I went to my parents house for the weekend (no internet connection) and didn't come back until Monday.  So have just gotten caught up on all my emails and things and reading all the comments and entries here and other places of all my friends and completely forgot to update my own.I am still doing well although not quite at the level I was the last time I wrote.  Still I have much more energy and interests in doing things and I am enjoying being around people.  It's odd how quick things can turn around...and it seems now like it's so long ago I was feeling miserable.  Does anyone else go through that?  When your moods have shifted does it ever seem so distant that things were the complete opposite only days before?  It's odd and amazing...but sort of disturbing at the same time.I spent 3 nights (4 days) at my parents and that went well.  I went out on Friday because we were going on a day trip Saturday.  Had a great time, visited with family, saw the ocean, walked on the rocks, ate Strawberry Shortcake, got sunburnt....and basically had an all around amazing time.  I love going away when I feel good.  I like pretending to be a tourist.  I think this summer I'm going to do that around the city.  Take the transit and go to random places I haven't been and play tourist.  Go in the tourist traps, explore, just get out and have a good time.  I did a little bit of that today with my sister.She is wanting to get a tattoo so I went with her to check out some of the places.  We ended up on a street in another part of the city that we don't go to very often and it felt like a completely differnet place.  It had old style looking buildings and a real heritage feel to it.  Very cool and so much character and it was so much fun.  I've got to do more of that.Both of my parents' birthdays are this week so I will spend more time with them over the next few days.  I also have a fair number of appointments this week and next so I'll be all over the place.  Tomorrow I get to do a little more exploring, have an appointment in an area of the city I'm not familiar with, and then I have to meet up with my family.  Plus I still need to buy my dad's birthday gift.  I'm thinking maybe some Fudge or baked goods.  Sounds good to me.  LOL.The only reason I said earlier I may not be doing quite so well as last week as I'm still dealing with some bad thoughts and urges.  I won't go into detail about those as it's not really that important.  But those evils are still taunting me and trying to get me to give in.  I'm going to try and stay clear of those things for now.  It's hard but I know it's better at this point if I resist.  That aside things are very well and I still consider myself to be in an excellent mood in comparisson to just over a week ago.

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Bad thoughts and urges come, it\'s just part of the territory... but you doing the right thing, your on your meds, in therapy, and your staying out and about, your not isolating. I\'m so proud of you! Yes I have felt the same way the whole mood shift thing, it is odd, but I\'m just thankful that I am where I am now, you can\'t change the past or predict the future just live it up in the present... Good to hear from you, so glad to hear that your doing good and liking life right now. Much love... Rachael