hi...i'm home from appt.  decided to try to stick this out...i'm not entirely sure right now what the best thing to do is.  i know what i did after my appointment isn't the best thing but i don't care...i went and bought some coolers.  i just need something different and that's what i feel like so that's what i got.  i'll feel better for tonight anyway...*shrugs*so tired of feeling so low and miserable...it hurts so much i literally feel sick...from the pain of being depressed...