blech...woke up and think i'm getting a cold...my roommate has one so it will be no surprise to be if i am getting it too.  I catch everything because of my low white blood cell's. i see my psychiatrist today...i dunno if it is a good idea anymore to request hospitalization or not...i don't want to take a bed from someone who needs it more...i'm not exactly in crisis or anything...i'm just so sick of feeling this way and sometimes that helps break the cycle....or at the least get things like my sleep back on track i'm constantly tired the last couple days...i think that is the new meds.  i still couldn't seem to sleep so i watched a movie last night.went out yesterday with my mom and sister for a bit for supper at the mall...it went alright but it is hard to push all the bad emotions down inside to be with them and in public.  i bought some headbands.  i've been missing the ones i used to have and since you could buy one for $6 or 5 for $10 i bought 5...but some of them actually came with more so i ended up with 8 for $10.   well i dunno what else to say...i'm all talked out from being around so many people the last 2 days and i have my appt in a couple hours. Also i start seeing a new counsellor in a week or two.  *shrugs* we'll see how that goes.