not good not good not goodi feel very lonely, i don't know...i feel very much like i'm dangling over the edge of a cliff and losing my grib...it's scary.... i posted awhile back some of the lyrics to a song called Cut....it's by a Christian artist called Plumb....anyway...I have a link to the video.... http://youtube.com/watch?v=LEGoHi5HDn0 I don't believe there is anything in it that is triggering...except for maybe the actual lyrics....but i think the video is so tastefully done... This song has touched me so much I actually bought the cd...am waiting for it to be shipped to me...since it's about $10 cheaper to get it online (even with the shipping) then it is to buy it locally.   I am seriously considering asking my psychiatrist tomorrow for an admission.  I really don't want to go that route, because sometimes it does make things worse before better.  But I don't know right now what else to try and I don't know how long I can hold out anymore. I'm getting weird sensations that are freaking me out and having visions and fantasies that are really disturbing to me.  I don't remember either of these things ever happening before.The sensations...are feeling things that should only be seen or heard.  Like when a car goes by outside and the lights from it flash on the wall in my room I feel an uncomfortable buzzing inside my body...it only lasts for a couple seconds....the same thing happens with noises such as lawn mowers, voices, doors opening/closing...it's really really bothering me.The visions are just too messed up to mention...and for the few seconds that I have them it is like they are real...but I know they aren't.  I feel so f*cked up.