fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fucki can't wait tell fucken next wednesday....i'm fucken gonna lose it before then i'm barely holding together nowi told her i not doing well i don't think i can wait that long but i have no choice....i can't do thisi really really goota fucken cut again...this isn't good i'm like doing that almost every hour now....when did things go so fucken wrong for me i am a waste of time i am such a fucken waste of time and space and everything...fuck