Well just woke up again...was hoping I'd sleep through the night...didn't even make it to midnight.  Feeling more and more like I don't belong on this planet.  Feeling more and more that everyone will be better without me.  I haven't bothered calling anyone or telling anyone this time around because I don't think there is anything out there that can help.  I'd just be wasting peoples time anyway....I ain't worth anything.  Not a fucking thing.  This is just how I'm meant to be...plain and simple.  I still haven't worked out anything definite....so many things have failed me in the past.