waiting

a poem about my mother
 
 
you will never change.
nor will you ever even realize you need to.
its always everyone else but you.
take a hard look in the mirror, and when you do....
look around and see who's left next to you.
and when you're all alone except for me,
realize that that's a good thing that reflects on me.
you'll never know what Ive done for you,
what Ive given up and gone through,
how your words and actions have impacted my life,
Ive suffered the price.
but i never thought twice.
but there's only so much hurt and pain i can take,
only so many sentences and words i can fake,
its my whole life and well being that's at stake.
so yea, for now, i can say yea its me.
Im to blame, easily.
but one day you're gonna have to wake up and see,
realize your own actions and accept responsibility.
until that day,
ill just hope and pray,
ill wait for a day that Im allowed to be okay.