I am watching a Christmas movie right now that was playing when my ex broke up with me.  It is reminding me how better my life is without her.  I don't like to think about her, but what can I do.  Thinking how better my life is without her is a good thing.  She cheated on me after I asked her to marry me.  I have only thought about marrying her, but she did leave me.  It is only my opinion, but her leaving me I think really hurt my immune system and I think that brought my ms out.  I think that was a big stressor, and my big car accident was another one.  I hope that I never think of her ever again.  I think it is like what I said to this person at the national ms society, I may never have another flare up if I stay calm for the rest of my life.