In some ways, it is like I have been preparing for something like this my entire life.  I am extremely self suficient and I always have been.  I am my own auto mechanic, gourmet chef, I can fix anything that is mam made or figure anything out.  I don't like shoveling snow, or mowing the lawn.  Now I have an excuse to not do, or do anything I want.  But it is not like I am dying, or going to anytime soon.  I have much to do and a long life ahead of me still.  Someday soon, I want to learn more about botany.  Christmas has Poinsetias.