I am trying to accept all of this, but it is not easy with the way that people are around me sometimes.  Isn't this kind of funny, "To me, MS use to stand for microsoft, not Multiple Sclerosis".  I said that joke a while back, and no one laughed.  I am just trying to make the best of a bad situation.  That is very much like what I have been told about going to MS group meetings.  I have been told not to go because they are just a bunch of whinners.  If you are a positive person before this happens, than you might be able to adjust and make it through it alright.  I have had a really excellent life, largely because I have had an exceptional sence of adventure.  I do rely to much on those past memories, but isn't that what their for?  I have had many good days and experiences behind me, but I have much to do ahead of me.  I once worked as a glass blower, I want to get back into that.  That is every birthday and christmas present taken care of for the rest of my life.