Wow. I just read what I wrote yesterday. I am very proud of myself. Up until this time I have always known, statistically, I could relapse at any time. Now I know that I have beaten the odds. I have overcome this demon addiction. If I can make it over a year without even a slip after the death of my child, I can make it through anything. Really. Don't you feel the same way? We've been hurt just as bad as we possibly can hurt. We're still alive. Kudos to us!