Last week was ineofthe worst weeks that I have had since Jeff died. It was awful. I chose this picture because it reminds me of spring. New life. Jeff named this picture "Deep In Thoughts, Clown Thoughts"   Last week my family thought that I was suicidal. I'm here to say that that was never an option. Not ever. I did get a little drunk once. So what? I did eat too much chocolate, who cares? This week I'm better. I hope everyone cares! I love you all.   What brought me out of the funk was feeling Jeff's hand on my head while I was laying in bed. No, it wasn't the night I was drunk.