Damn. I want to feel better. I'm sick of crying all the time. All of a sudden I'm crying at work, having to leave the office. I hang out on the bathroom more than anyone in the building. I don't care if my house is clean or if my live family gets fed. And if they dare to say anything to me about it there is hell to pay. I am not nice anymore. I would hate to be them and have to live with me.

   I told my mom that I wished I could just die, expecting some sort of reaction, I don't know what. She looked at me like I was stupid. She said "Do you think you're the only one? I feel the same way you do". Well, yes. I thought I was the only one. I must say that I do not want my mom to feel this way. HMMMMMMM.