When I got to work today my boss showed me googlemaps.com. I had never seen it before. The first thing that I did on it was to look for University Medical Center in Tucson, where I left my sweet son. I found it. I mini'd the screen and kept bringing it up all day long. Sounds kinda crazy but just looking at the picture of the building where I lost saw Jeff comforted me all day long. On the way to work I kept seeing Jeff at bus stops. I've decided to believe that he really is there. Watching me as I go through life, waiting for the day that I can go home with him. Why do I feel like I've gone off the deep end? I'm not nearly as depressed as I was this morning, so whatever works, right? I taught my cat to play fetch!!!!!
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I totally agree... whatever works!!! I often pretend Cara is in the room with me when I fold clothes because I fold clothes in the middle room where she slept... and she is there in spirit.... I love it when my cat gets startled... I just know that\'s Cara and that she\'s pulled his tail or made a face at him.... I need her here with me... in a way that I can sense more clearly... and so I bring her.... Today is a hard one... I\'m feeling sad and missing her... Its ok though... I\'ll probably read and cry awhile and it will be ok...
you havent gone off the deep end. i think its the beginning of sanity when i truly recognize that my son is always watching me and sort of laughing at me, lovingly, as he would. huge hugs, marianne
if you have gone off the deep end you have a whole bunch of us right with you. like you said \" whatever works\". The goal is always to make it minute to minute until we are reunited with our babies again.
I see my son all the time too, i know i have probably made many a young men very uncomfortable by staring @ them like i knew them. i figure as long as the police doesn\'t come knocking on my door , i will continue doing that(lol).Hugs, Inga