Hi Y'all, I'm having kind of a bad day. Not horrible, just a little bad. When my son Jeffrey died, my son Tony put together a collage on a foam poster board with wings, about three feet square. Since the funeral it has been on top of the entertainment center. We do a lot of TV watching here in this small apartment so it seems like I was looking at it whenever I was home. So today I put it away. I'm stuck between the guilt of putting it away and the relief that it's gone. Has anyone else felt this? I don't want to look at those pictures all day long. Having them put away feels like I'm being .... I don't know what I'm feeling, but I don't like it.
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Today is a good day! It was day two of training for my new job. We played a question-answer game for two hours covering what we learned yesterday and I won! Two free movie tickets! That will be a nice escape for my husband and I. We sure need to do something to get our minds off of things. I\'m doing much better with my grief now that I\'m not driving eight hours a day. My mind is now occupied with learning and I don\'t have much time to think about the sad stuff.
Our Human Resourses guy cornered me asking questions like \"how are you today\", you know, hard questions that usually start me to bawling, and I sort of giggled an told him that I\'m doing quite well today, thank you. He said that he can tell by looking at me today that I\'m doing better. My coloring is even better. I guess I\'ve been pale.
I don\'t know how often I\'ll have these good days but I\'m hoping they come in muliples!