Hi, my name is Colleen. On Dec.24,1981, God gave me a beautiful son. Jeff had a congential heart defect called Tetrology of Fallot. In all, He had ten heart surgeries, including a transplant on March 29,2007. He lived 3 1/2 weeks after surgery, but passed away on April 21,2007. I miss Jeff so deeply at times that I think if I breathe I might throw up. I need some grieving skills. I drive for a living with passengers in the vehicle. I can't really be bawling driving down the street.I've requested that my company take me off the road, I think they eventually will. I would like to hear from other parents who have lost children. I like to think that I'm a pretty nice person, but lately I'm just plain ugly to some people. I don't know what comes over me. I work with seriously mentally ill people. You just can't be mean to these guys. I burst into tears at the most inopportune times. Please help.