I'm supposed to be a writer, so writing in a journal is especially difficult for me.  I worry so much that what I've written won't sound profound or prolific, or whatever.  But with this new diagnosis, it's important to write - to keep track of feelings, symptoms, questions, you name it.  I don't want anybody to know all of my deepest darkest thoughts, but I have to get this out.  It's just about killing me. 
Since being dx'd in August, I don't go more than a few minutes at a time without thinking about MS.  If I'm not thinking about how my body feels, then I'm online looking for new information or resources, looking for or reading about others who have the disease, or taking some sort of medication.  It seems that's all I'm about anymore, and it's very frustrating.  I don't know if this is who I am or if it's just who I'm making myself out to be.  I don't know how to wipe MS out of my brain - at least the idea of it - to get back to who I was before the dx.  Because of this my home life, work life and friendships have all suffered.  Does this feeling ever go away, or at least get better??