This morning, I got up at 5:00 so I could witness the birth of another day. I made a pot of coffee, petted my dogs and went out back with them so we could share the sunrise. I felt wonderful. It felt great to feel like my life was coming back within my control and God's guidance. I read my daily devotionals from Max Lucado & Billy Graham and came here to DS to spend time with my friends and greet new friends that seem to find their way here each day. So I popped into the "If it Ain't Yours" thread because it had been pretty active in the hours before I got up. And there it was.....anger, resentment and excuses. I allowed myself to get sucked into the fray again, and my "male dominant" nature got the best of me and I jumped in head first into the empty pool of pettiness. And I feel like 2 weeks of compassion, fellowship, love, and most importantly, trust, had evaporated in an instant.
I'm not sure what to do with this. It wasn't in my daily devotionals, nor was it on my agenda for the day. Two weeks ago today, I found this place and was immediately given gifts the likes of which I have never received in my whole life. I mentioned yesterday that I felt like God blindsided me when he admonished me to own up to my past and trust in His forgiveness. I wasn't prepared for that, and I then shared that I was afraid to do so. But he worked his magic and answered my prayer, and I went to my bed in a peace I had not felt in a very, very long time.
Well, I got blindsided yet again, and I am very sad, indeed. And I am confused. My sanctuary that is Daily Strength, is not today what it was yesterday. I can only hope that this is temporary. All families argue and fight on occasion. Why not this one? I do not know. What I DO know is that I am not going to try to fix things that I cannot fix. I would have thought I had learned that lesson when I could not "fix" my wife as she lay dying right before my very eyes.
My prayer today is that my dear friends at Daily Strength will forgive me and forgive each other, and that we can resume our journey in peace just like our Lord wants us to. Take 4 minutes out of your busy lives today and watch a man celebrate his faith..........................
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wynYMJwEPH8&feature=related
Peace to everybody.........................Joe.....:-)
I'm not sure what to do with this. It wasn't in my daily devotionals, nor was it on my agenda for the day. Two weeks ago today, I found this place and was immediately given gifts the likes of which I have never received in my whole life. I mentioned yesterday that I felt like God blindsided me when he admonished me to own up to my past and trust in His forgiveness. I wasn't prepared for that, and I then shared that I was afraid to do so. But he worked his magic and answered my prayer, and I went to my bed in a peace I had not felt in a very, very long time.
Well, I got blindsided yet again, and I am very sad, indeed. And I am confused. My sanctuary that is Daily Strength, is not today what it was yesterday. I can only hope that this is temporary. All families argue and fight on occasion. Why not this one? I do not know. What I DO know is that I am not going to try to fix things that I cannot fix. I would have thought I had learned that lesson when I could not "fix" my wife as she lay dying right before my very eyes.
My prayer today is that my dear friends at Daily Strength will forgive me and forgive each other, and that we can resume our journey in peace just like our Lord wants us to. Take 4 minutes out of your busy lives today and watch a man celebrate his faith..........................
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wynYMJwEPH8&feature=related
Peace to everybody.........................Joe.....:-)
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It\'s not what you think, Joe...it\'s HOW you think.
Based upon the HOW WE THINKS will be WHAT WE THINKS.
Example: If you think the worst will happen, you\'ll color and distort the facts to fit the reality you think you want...or worse yet...the one you think you deserve on some level.
Joe,
Don\'t be so hard on yourself. There are 40 posts on that thread and you are only 4.(10% lol) This is a distraction but we have to deal with whatever comes our way. I have never been one to take a back seat if I believe in what I want to say. Take a deep breath and relax. This too will pass
Your friend
Dave