TOday
Hi All,
Well I’m struggling. I haven’t written/journaled in a bit and know I need to, But I just can’t find the word for the emotional roller-costar that I find my self on. I am taking your’s and my own advice about getting out and exercising some. I try to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but for this past week I have had the constant feeling of being a failure. I look at my parents who have been married for 56 years. BOY did they set a bad example of all those years loving, working beside each other, eating lunch together almost every day of their working careers . How’s a guy to live up to those standards? (I say this in sarcasm, because I respect them so much). These past couple of weeks I again just wonder about it all, and if I should not continue in the life I have lived for the past 23 years. I turned 50 a few days ago and I looked like an old man in the mirror when I saw myself. I have been a good father to my girls (and grand girls). But they are all gone but one, and she says she is moving out by the end of the month. I guess it will better to be alone with a future than alone with someone who loves me but is not In Love with me (that is a very lonely). I saw the lawyer again this past Monday and he should have me papers ready to file by the end of the week. AM I MAKING A MISTAKE? Probably am no matter which decision I chose. But My good senses tell me the bigger of mistakes would be to continue living in the past. One Foot in front of the other. (((Hugs to everyone))). Thanks !
Well I’m struggling. I haven’t written/journaled in a bit and know I need to, But I just can’t find the word for the emotional roller-costar that I find my self on. I am taking your’s and my own advice about getting out and exercising some. I try to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but for this past week I have had the constant feeling of being a failure. I look at my parents who have been married for 56 years. BOY did they set a bad example of all those years loving, working beside each other, eating lunch together almost every day of their working careers . How’s a guy to live up to those standards? (I say this in sarcasm, because I respect them so much). These past couple of weeks I again just wonder about it all, and if I should not continue in the life I have lived for the past 23 years. I turned 50 a few days ago and I looked like an old man in the mirror when I saw myself. I have been a good father to my girls (and grand girls). But they are all gone but one, and she says she is moving out by the end of the month. I guess it will better to be alone with a future than alone with someone who loves me but is not In Love with me (that is a very lonely). I saw the lawyer again this past Monday and he should have me papers ready to file by the end of the week. AM I MAKING A MISTAKE? Probably am no matter which decision I chose. But My good senses tell me the bigger of mistakes would be to continue living in the past. One Foot in front of the other. (((Hugs to everyone))). Thanks !
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