Still here

Well it has been a week since I found the courage to talk to my wife. This past week she was very distant and ambivalent. I saw an attorney just for information on Wednesday and my counselor on Thursday. I approached my wife on Wednesday evening about joint counseling and she said she thought that I should just go alone for now. I tried asking what she wanted, that I could do to help us and she just said that she did not know. So more of the same!   It took so much for me to go to her last weekend, and I feel that was a step forward. I do not want to “Wait Until After the Holidays” to discuss things. I do not want to become stagnate again. But I too am finding it very hard not to be ambivalent also. Have another meeting with my counselor this week, but she can’t seem to provide me with new things for me to work on right now. It is as if the world wants me to stand still. Arraaagggggg! Ok I’m starting to feel drained again.