Day 40!!

I feel very tired today,  I have to force myself to get up and motivated. I don't feel very good , but I have been on fanapt my medicine for almost 3 days. I need to force myself to exercise since that might help me feel better. I have to go to an AA meeting at noon since i haven't been to a meeting in 2 weeks. I might go to this noon meeting but there is sooo many people, and I don 't like people much when I feel like this. going to force myself, suppose to pick up my friend and get a smootie and go to the meeting,
Tonight I am taking my son to a Hockey game in Glendale!! Trying to be motivated!!
Its tough!!! I better ask God to help give me guidance!!! To get motivated!!!!