Day 38
I feel bad for my son cause he couldn't find his wallet that he made money this summer at his Dad's Restaurant and was saving. I don't know where he put it and we couldn't miss the bus looking for it. Because my son is ADHD he organizational skills need much improvement. I can hardly keep track of my stuff much less know where my 11 year olds stuff is...
Made an emergancy appointment with my pdoc today regarding my meds.. I am basically on the Luvox and adivan... no mood stabalizer. I don't know if that is why I am rapid cycling.. having a massive emotional breakdown twice a week or more. I am experiencing lots of side effects.. total loss of all short term memory, and chronic stomach problems. I hope we can get this worked out cause I hate feeling completely offbalance and emotionally unstable.
Forced myself to go to dinner for my friends b-day last night and I felt like I was in the twilight zone.. they were talking about movies and tv shows and literally I haven't enjoyed anything in soooo long. I have no attention span and no memory. Trouble at times communicating.. i am not feeling sorry for myself.. but at times its a sad state of affairs. The only relief I used to get was from self medicating which I was great at, too good, I used to love to smoke and drink. Which almost destroyed me so its good I don't do that anymore. I feel good exercising, that helps a lot, I force myself, even when I am low..I do it anyway..
Made an emergancy appointment with my pdoc today regarding my meds.. I am basically on the Luvox and adivan... no mood stabalizer. I don't know if that is why I am rapid cycling.. having a massive emotional breakdown twice a week or more. I am experiencing lots of side effects.. total loss of all short term memory, and chronic stomach problems. I hope we can get this worked out cause I hate feeling completely offbalance and emotionally unstable.
Forced myself to go to dinner for my friends b-day last night and I felt like I was in the twilight zone.. they were talking about movies and tv shows and literally I haven't enjoyed anything in soooo long. I have no attention span and no memory. Trouble at times communicating.. i am not feeling sorry for myself.. but at times its a sad state of affairs. The only relief I used to get was from self medicating which I was great at, too good, I used to love to smoke and drink. Which almost destroyed me so its good I don't do that anymore. I feel good exercising, that helps a lot, I force myself, even when I am low..I do it anyway..
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Just remember, you are still in withdrawl from Nicotene. The Nicotene just used to hit you in \"just the right way\"...that\'s why you smoked.
It works, a lot, to modulate GABA and other Neurotransmitters in the brain. Some people find Wellbutrin a good way to ease off the dependency...but, I am not so sure.
Anyway, your working off different Neurotransmitters currently and it\'s no wonder why you don\'t feel good.
Give yourself a break and some more time to allow your body and mind to change it\'s appetite.