Hello all!!! Well its been so long since my last journal AGAIN!!!! We had our follow up from our last failed treatment and we had a very good 1 hour long chat, and i felt we spoke alot about things, the clinic say that the 2 eggs we had put back in where grade 2 which was an improvement from our last treatment which were grade 3, they were surprised that 1 didnt take as we had a really strong 5 cell one, i told her that i bleedagain 1 week after transfer and she was shocked as most people dont bleed until 2 to 3 weeks after transfer, we talked about the pain i was in on transfer day, she really didnt know what to say and said that maybe next time i should take something for my bowel movements?? She did say that my blood test were funny I was 11FSH in January but just before treatment it went to 7.5??? she couldnt work that one out either? she said that I do have a problem with the quality of my eggs and that is why Im on the short Protical programme and that my eggs are getting very low too, but my hubby sperm has improved from 1 millionper ml to 17million per mil!!!! which is great!!!! We asked if we could still have our own baby or do we need to look at doner? she said that we should try at least one more time but if we did look at doner it would only be eggs as my hubby sperm is ok, I got abit upset over this and my hubby couldnt understand why?? but when i mentioned sperm doner to him last year he was like OH NO!!! Dont even go there!!! so I dont really understand how he is up for egg doner but not sperm, i told him that if, and i mean if we did have doner id would only do it if it was both doner, egg and sperm as i feel it would be fair for the both of us, i know some of you will think its wrong but thats my personnel feeling about it all. I also asked the doctor what would happen if we both meet other partners, the lady looked very concerned and said to me that you would both proabaly need to have IVF with your new partners but if my hubby meet a very young girl in her mid 20's then she may fall naturally and then she said the same to me about if i meet a man with very good sperm i could fall preganant too. Anyway we are hopefully going to try again in October this year and we are going to a very good clinic in london, I just hope that it works this time as its putting a strain on our relaionship at the moment, its so silly how something like this can break people but it does.  Im thinking of you all, and Im so happy for all my friends on here that have had lovely babies lately!!!! You are all so lucky!!!! wish some luck on all of us!!! Love you allxxxxxxxxx