H all, thanks to some of you who gave me some feedback on the IUI, Im still really not sure what to do yet, I have up to day 6 of my next cycle to make up my mind, my Hubby isnt to sure what all this is about really and just goes witht he flow, It really getting me down now all this not being able to fallen natural, its really hard at work as i am a manager of a large clothing store and we get a lot of kids and babies comming into my store everyday, I got very tearfull the other day and hid myself in my stockroom and my assistant manager found me and gave me a big cuddle, i really dont know whats up with me, i just want to cuddle my own new born baby in my arms and care for it and give it so much love, why is it that some of us cant just have this without going through what we have to go through. I spoke to my clinic that we had our IVF with un May about having IUI and they looked at my records and called me back and said that IUI is a waste of time as my husbands sperm count is too low and that I dont have very good quality eggs, I didnt know the bit about me!! I told them that the Gyn I saw said I should try IUI, but she said that if he wants to do it and you want to waste your money then go for it, she said that the only treatment they could give me was ICSI, but I then said yeah that Ok if you have a spare £5000pounds in the bank, thats what we spent in May on ICSI, we cant really afford that right now. I know a baby is priceless and beleive me I would have the treatment tomorrow but my husband is very chilled about it and wants to wait til our NHS free ICSI comes through which should be about may/june next year, this to me is a life time away!!! Im sorry guys, for moaning but just had to get it off me chest and feeling low doesnt help too, hope you are all well, keep in touch all of you.xxxxx