Today
I'm writing this journal to list my reasons for being on this site. I've been on support sites before and the pattern was that I would post something on them, hoping for someone, anyone to give support and encouragement. Then when I would later log on & had no response, it only added to my feelings of being unloved & unworthy.
My purpose in using DailyStrength is to journal my thoughts and to look for support. I need to fix the brokenness of my life, myself. I cannot expect all these people with problems of their own, to run to offer me support and hugs.
As a broken person - I of course, want hugs and affirmation that I am loveable, smart, good and kind. I want other people to give me "attaboys" & encouragement. The truth is what I need is strength within myself.
We all want connection with other humans. We all need love, even in the form of a website hug. But in order to change our lives, we must find in within ourselves.
I have managed to hold fast on a few boundaries with the verbally abusive, controlling, alcoholic boyfriend. I have managed to take better care of myself in the past few days. I am pulling away from him emotionally and I think he sees it. This will probably end up in an explosion on his part, as this has been the pattern. When/if he explodes, I must leave him. I must leave him in order to save myself.
Wish me strength.
My purpose in using DailyStrength is to journal my thoughts and to look for support. I need to fix the brokenness of my life, myself. I cannot expect all these people with problems of their own, to run to offer me support and hugs.
As a broken person - I of course, want hugs and affirmation that I am loveable, smart, good and kind. I want other people to give me "attaboys" & encouragement. The truth is what I need is strength within myself.
We all want connection with other humans. We all need love, even in the form of a website hug. But in order to change our lives, we must find in within ourselves.
I have managed to hold fast on a few boundaries with the verbally abusive, controlling, alcoholic boyfriend. I have managed to take better care of myself in the past few days. I am pulling away from him emotionally and I think he sees it. This will probably end up in an explosion on his part, as this has been the pattern. When/if he explodes, I must leave him. I must leave him in order to save myself.
Wish me strength.
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Thank You for Sharing! Wishing You Inner Strength! ~Sincerely~
dear alone: I am praying for you now! and yes you will need to leave. not easy but are there some shelters or safe places you can go to? stay strong. you are worth it, you are a good person!
I wish you strength, courage and perseverance! You are worth every ounce of the happiness you seek. I think your survival instinct is telling you to get out so you need to listen. Stay strong. Big hug, Tokyo