Anxiety

I woke up early as I usually do.  Had my coffee & started obsessing about how much I don't like this life.  I seem to do this every day. And then by 8, I'm in a total state of anxiety - with a million thoughts of what I could do, what I can't do & how hopeless this is.
I'm writing this down to affirm to myself.  It is not hopeless. I can make changes in my life. There are people who would help me. I am a smart, strong, good person.  I AM A SMART, STRONG, GOOD PERSON. The sky will not fall if I leave him. He will not kill himself if I leave him.  I will find a way to be okay if I leave him.  I WILL NOT GO BACK TO HIM IF I LEAVE HIM.
Today I will:
Find an EFT video to tap with to reduce my anxiety
Ask my friend to take me to a few stores as I am still not able to drive
Smile as much as I can
Try to set & hold boundaries with him.