A "good" day

 I've thought of Michaela all day but in happy ways. Her original due date is Aug 27 and I'm afraid of how I will feel (especially since AF is due that day and I have PMDD). I'm trying to psyche myself up so I don't crash emotionally. Today was a good day (emotionally) and I wish I could save today's feelings until next Friday so I can use happy thoughts on that day. I wrote on one of my previous journal entries that Aug 27 is just another day. God intended her due date to be May 27 and I should accept it as such. I don't want her to feel that she let me down by not meeting my expectations of being born in Aug. No, I am proud of her due date, May 27 the day she went to heaven. That's what she was and I should not expect more from my little angel. I love her and I love everything that surrounds her being. Thank God for letting me be her mommy and feel such immense love.
I love you Michaela Rain!