hi all well i put my tablets up i feel and getting here well am sick of being scard of doing thing not going out well iv been out went to the theatre i was a bit scard but i kept it in my head nothing going to happen and it never i had a great time then i when out with my daughter iv just got to tell myself how much am missing out on in my life becose am sick am i can go out without a drink but some people scard me when there drinking but i will get over that in time am also starting driveing lessons on wensday bit scard but am going to fight it i need to there only one life and am sick of letting it past me by just never want to feel the why i did 10 months ago i though i was going to die it still comes in my head when i go dizzy or i get the mad thing in my head but i push it out of my mind if i can i hope you are all doing well big hugs