hi everyone am so glad to find you all how can i start i was abuse as a child from the age of 5 till now i say now becase some things dont change in my life am trying to make it better anyway i will start about my life when it started my mum was a drinker my dad left when i was 5 so i stayed in my aunties my cousin abuse me till i left i blaink that out i went back to my mum she was always in the pub at 13 i meet a man 26 he was fun thats whot i thougtht at the time he hit me bad 4 3 years no sex just he wanted power over me 1 time i blacked out i cant 4get that it hard i start on drugs at 14 i couldnt speak 2 my mum i was always blacking out at lease i didnt have to think anymore at 15 had my first daugther she my angel anyway mybe am borein u all and i have 2 be stounge i had a drinking and drug problem for years iv stoped it all now never again iv sorted my life out it takes time but i will get there i drink to stop feeling and thats bad iv lost all these year i want my life back i still have problems but without drink drugs have bad anxiety that i cant go out if anyone needs to talk am always here iv been there done it and my life is getting better just one day at a time thanks 4 reading my story of my life there is more 2 life than drink and drugs sorry 4 the spelling  a big hug to all.