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Shit's going downhill fast. My mom convinced me to go to a fancy private school I didn't even really like which cost more than we could afford. She didn't tell my dad how much we actually owed. I went there and ended up being completely psychotic when exposed to dorm life. I had to come home. I'm really nervous and shy about people so I haven't had jobs to be around a lot of people. My dad found out how much we owe last night and I was just about to get paid for my computer work so I could buy something at the gun show last weekend. He was so pissed it wasn't even funny. This is my mom's fault for sending me to that school so that she could be all proud about me going to a private school. Anyways, my dad was just about to buy himself a new mustang and now we have to pay off like a 7000 dollar debt. My mom says I need to give all my pay to him and that this is our burden equally when it's her fault. I worked so damn long on this computer I'll get nothing for it. Idk I was feeling heartless yesterday afternoon anyways. I was hoping he'd get drunk and assault me so I could kill him and get away with it. I don't know whether I should just get my money and hand it over or to get it and take off. I have everything I need to survive in the desert. just need a fucking gun
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no, no guns! I won\'t let me husband keep one in the house because if I\'m in a bad place, it\'s never good to have a gun around. no, no, no!! And for what it\'s worth - it sounds like, from this entry, that it IS your mom\'s fault. She is the one who needs to be held accountable.
Yea no assaults nor murders, and guns - I dunno, is that really a good idea for someone with BP? I would have a discussion (try to keep it calm) with your mom and dad over this debt.. maybe you should help a little (to keep the peace & think of it as like you would be paying for public school) - but to have to give everything you ever earn is a bit much IMO..
haha I\'ve been around guns my entire life. I\'m a damn good shot, but so is he and he has a 357 mag in his sock drawer, all I have is a bunch of rifles, not so handy for defense. I have my blank gun that shoots tear gas though, so that\'s good. He might have just been pissy after work like always
My dad has almost shot people while drunk before is why I\'m acting this way. One time my grandpa hired a guy to take a bee hive out of their attic. The professional way to do this always involves opening up the wall and physically removing the hive. My dad was drunk and saw the guy going around and tearing things up he went and got his revolver and the guy left before my dad could shoot him