I feel so bad for my husband!  He is not taking this situation very well.  I think that he feels guilty that his genes are defective and the reason that we have miscarriages.  He keeps saying "I did this to you/us".  I keep telling him that he did not choose anything that happened.  He does know that he was born with the defective genes, but he is angry and hurt, as am I  So we talked last night and then it turned into a soft fight.  He will not consider getting a sperm donor and it seems like he does not want to adopt.  So that leaves us where?  Childless for life!!  I cannot handle this stress and pain of thinking that there will never be a baby in this house.  Tim even told me that he should leave me so that I can have a baby with someone else.  He is crazy and I know he is speaking out of hurt.  Usually I retaliate in a fight, but I am trying to be very sensitive since I know that he feels that this is all his fault.  Our only hope is to talk with a woman that the doctor referred us to.  She specializes in genetics and will look at his results to determine if there is a possibility that we can conceive a child together.  I left her a message and she has not called me back yet.  Maybe she is on vacation or something.  I will call her today.