It has now been over a month since my last miscarriage.   There are only a few people that actually know about it.  Tim and I said that we would tell our parents when the time was right, but we still have not told them yet!!  We even went to Mexico with my mom and stepdad and you know the conversation about making babies came up a couple times.  I just feel like they would all be crushed again.  I also feel like something is wrong with me and that I do not want to admit that my body is broken!!  I hate hiding things from my family but I don't want them to feel the pain that I have felt.

Last night I asked Tim if he still wanted to t.t.c. right away.  He said "why wouldn't I?".  I guess I just needed some reassurance to try so soon, even though my doctor told me it was okay to start after my next period, which started the second to last day in Mexico and I wasn't prepared.  Mexican pads suck by the way!!!  Anyways, I am just really scared that a miscarriage will happen again.  I just need to hope for the best and whatever happens will happen.  But I hope that it will  happen SOON!!