My mum asked to borrow money today. I couldn't give her any because I have NONE spare at all. And won't for a fair few weeks still. And even if I did i didn't really want to give it to her. She wanted it for smokes. She has been going through SOOOOOO many, which is another thing she does while having an episode smoke HUGE amounts. But she has barely any money fo food and rent let alone the other bills she has and she is still smoking like crazy. She needs to quit or cut back or just realise that she can't afford it and smoke the bare minimum. If she had wanted the money for food or medication the I would have tried to scrape something together for her smehow. But for smokes I really didn't want to.
I'm struggling to cover our own bills and rent etc...and when we can't afford something optional like that we go ithout or get the bare minimum...and yes i know she is addicted to them, but I have a very ddictive type personality and I know what it's like to want something bad. Money wise she just can't and I kind of resent being asked when she knows I have nothing at the moment either.
 
I don't know maybe I'm being mean, but I am just starting to resent all of this crap. The mess she got herself into and has dragged me along. Most isn't her fault really, but it's not mine either.
 
She had her assesment for the pension yesterday. God I hope she gets it, she truely needs it. She just can't hold a job and she needs more money then the dole.