YAY my mum only has to pay $40 a month compensation (even though I really DON'T think it's fair she has to pay any money at all!!!)’
$40 is a bit much for her, but it's better then what has been going through my mind. And they lowered the amount over all. I AM SOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOO SOOOOOOO GREATFULL FOR THIS!!!!!!!!!
Mum has to send a form away saying she accepts. But of course she's not doing it right now. If it was me I'd just send it away. Why she has to put everything off to the last second. Is it a bipolar thing? I have no idea.
Worked with Mum on Sunday. Was meant to do it tomorrow too. But I don't have to anymore YAAAAAAY. Sunday wasn't too bad. But she did get a bit mad at me and make me feel crappy. But I wasn't having fun. I was so sore when I got home I couldn't move. AND was SO dreading tomorrow and then I found out I didn't have to go so YAY! And it better not turn out that I have to go, BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TOO!
I would be happy to just stay at home and NEVER work. I hate having to work. I don't mind going out of the house to do something occasionally...shopping, movies, visiting. But I hate the I have to get up and be some where at a certain time. I have to do this and that. I just don't like to work at all.
And right now I am on holidays from my regular job so I was annoyed about working this week. I'm going to LA in Feb, but I still don't want to have to work. I need money but working makes me so upset and depressed. I barley ever sleep the night before one of my shifts. I just lay there awake all night. It's not fun. I push through and do as much as I have to, to get by, but that's about it.
My sister was here for like 4 hours today, writing a resume to apply for some new jobs. Now I have the house to myself for a few hours.
I am worried because something went kinda good, mum only having to pay $40 a month and that I feel kinda ok that things will get ruined. I HATE this feeling and way of thinking, but it’s been so programmed into my brain that I can’t get it out now.
I just need to say STOP! It IS all ok mum only has to pay $40 a month she’ll manage it! She will get the forms in on time! Her bipolar IS under control! She is taking her medication! She is fine! My sister is fine! J is fine! We are all fine! Everyone and everything is fine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!
$40 is a bit much for her, but it's better then what has been going through my mind. And they lowered the amount over all. I AM SOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOO SOOOOOOO GREATFULL FOR THIS!!!!!!!!!
Mum has to send a form away saying she accepts. But of course she's not doing it right now. If it was me I'd just send it away. Why she has to put everything off to the last second. Is it a bipolar thing? I have no idea.
Worked with Mum on Sunday. Was meant to do it tomorrow too. But I don't have to anymore YAAAAAAY. Sunday wasn't too bad. But she did get a bit mad at me and make me feel crappy. But I wasn't having fun. I was so sore when I got home I couldn't move. AND was SO dreading tomorrow and then I found out I didn't have to go so YAY! And it better not turn out that I have to go, BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TOO!
I would be happy to just stay at home and NEVER work. I hate having to work. I don't mind going out of the house to do something occasionally...shopping, movies, visiting. But I hate the I have to get up and be some where at a certain time. I have to do this and that. I just don't like to work at all.
And right now I am on holidays from my regular job so I was annoyed about working this week. I'm going to LA in Feb, but I still don't want to have to work. I need money but working makes me so upset and depressed. I barley ever sleep the night before one of my shifts. I just lay there awake all night. It's not fun. I push through and do as much as I have to, to get by, but that's about it.
My sister was here for like 4 hours today, writing a resume to apply for some new jobs. Now I have the house to myself for a few hours.
I am worried because something went kinda good, mum only having to pay $40 a month and that I feel kinda ok that things will get ruined. I HATE this feeling and way of thinking, but it’s been so programmed into my brain that I can’t get it out now.
I just need to say STOP! It IS all ok mum only has to pay $40 a month she’ll manage it! She will get the forms in on time! Her bipolar IS under control! She is taking her medication! She is fine! My sister is fine! J is fine! We are all fine! Everyone and everything is fine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!
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